Where was we? Oh yeah… MCDONALDS!! 18th November, 00.30am a newborn baby strapped in the back of the car and two adults indulging in Big Macs. The luscious two beef patties, a slab of cheese and the Big Mac sauce. UNBEATABLE. (Opinions may differ). I was now pleasantly back to not being hangry. We then had a twenty minute drive home, I think the most quietest drive ever! We didn’t want to put music on because it might be too loud and we didn’t speak because we was so full and tired.

Somehow I climbed in the back of my Scirocco (3 door), I didn’t want him alone back there but damn was it hard to get out. I felt like a hundred year old woman with a belly that’s now jelly, with a nappy on and I forgot about my stitches. OUCH! We carried this baby in the house sat on the sofa and just stared at him. Who could believe that the little human you’ve been cooking for 9 months is now here, in real life, is now sat in your living room. I finished slurping my strawberry milkshake and Jamie and I looked at each other, nodded and started making our way to bed. I, or should I say we, couldn’t wait to get in our own bed, fluffy pillows, warm duvet and have a proper cuddle. We got changed, got Zachary in his crib, tucked him in and we was out like a light. Ayyy! (Big up Drake!) We slept for 9 hours, yep 9 hours! How good was our baby boy. This was going to be a walk in the park, maybe this is going to be easier than we thought. But today was our first full day as a family and I needed this little man to eat something. I always wanted to breastfeed, there are a lot of forceful opinions but honestly you do whatever you feel comfortable doing. I just knew if I didn’t like breastfeeding I can at least say I tried. Throughout pregnancy I thought I couldn’t produce milk because my boobs didn’t grow, my nipples weren’t hurting, I was convinced it wasn’t happening. After he was born, WOW my milk came in, my boobs were rock hard and leaking left right and centre. (Literally because I had one nipple pierced). Sorry for the TMI.

But I had a problem, little Zachary couldn’t latch nor was he even looking hungry. Of course being a first time mum I rang my community midwife for some help and she said,

It’s normal for a baby not to feed for the first 24 hours, if he still hasn’t had anything by the next day we’ll send someone to help

All day I tried and tried and he just wasn’t having it. I mean you can only do so much. We didn’t do anything that day, just slept, ate more and watched crappy TV. We all went to bed at about 10pm but I couldn’t sleep he was just being too quiet. I put his night light on to check on him, well to see if he was breathing and to be honest his breathing was all over the shop. Then I swear I saw him not breathing! I rang my midwife straight away and she said …